We found it odd yesterday morning when Cougar wasn't out on the porch waiting to be fed. Her blanket was empty. But we didn't think too much of it while we readied ourselves for church and then piled into the car. But just as we were pulling out, Patrick stopped the car, looking in his rearview mirror. "Oh my goodness!" And I worriedly asked, "What?"
He backed up the car and there she was, laying in the road.
We pulled back into our driveway, and I walked back to the house to get a box. The sobs came uncontrollably.
But as we drove to church with me still crying, Tate said, in his little angelic voice, "It's okay Mommy. Kitty's in the celestial kingdom now with Heavenly Father and Jesus." Oh to have the pure and perfect perspective of a child.
Later that day we had a funeral service for our sweet friend, sang a song, and a said a prayer.
During dinner we spoke of our favorite memories with Cougar. She wasn't with us long, but just long enough to wrap herself around our hearts. She was practically Tate's best friend. He perhaps spent the most time holding and cuddling and playing with her. And I loved her so much. But Patrick perhaps was most changed by her. Before Cougar, Patrick didn't much care for cats. But inviting a kitten into our circle changed his mind. She easily found a place in his heart. He told me with tears in his eyes that he kept thinking about Cougar and missing her. He loved her too.
After dinner we piled into the car again and drove to a friend's house to pick out another kitten. She's been asking us to take one and we were considering getting a second cat when we moved. Patrick thought it might help if we could fill the void quickly. We watched the little kittens from the kitchen window and promised to take the little white one {or even the gray} in three weeks when we move. And I'm so excited, but also apprehensive. Because I don't know if I will be able to love another cat as much as I did Cougar. I know she was just a cat, but she was my dear friend and we will always miss her.

















